**update from raging rachel yesterday**

So, after a good conversation via text with a friend, and after several episodes of "The Andy Griffith Show" and a lukewarm (eh, I take what I can get) bath, I finally eeked out my feelings in between involuntary tears (I really wanted to be more badass and straightforward. As mentioned earlier, I take what I can get). I also wasn't as clear and logical as I wanted to be. I think the "conversation" went along the lines of

Me: I'm frustrated with you because I had a long day and I'm so tired and so sore and you were playing xBox and drinking beer when I got home. I can't relax, I can't figure it out, and you're just having a good ol' time.

Joey: I'm sorry, baby. What can I do to make it better?

Me: Sell the xBox and stop drinking beer.

Joey: Okay. Want a foot rub or to go to Taco Bell?

Seriously? That's all it took? Why was ragey rachel so strung out? I do not understand these emotions I'm feeling and I definitely don't understand how Joey can be so understanding about them. Later on the conversation went on:

Joey: If you get home and I'm doing something you don't want me to be doing, then just tell me and I'll do anything else.

Me: (Sobbing, wtf?) That's the problem though! I don't know how you can fix it. I don't even know how to fix it. I just want you to stop having fun and be miserable with me. I can't ask for that!

Joey: Sure you can! I'll drop everything and come be miserable with you!

How do I avoid this weirdness in the future? I guess just talk about my feelings. Hm...so THAT'S what that means.